I had a roller coaster of a up bringing. Mostly my own doing, my childhood was one I wouldn't wish on anyone. I was lucky when my dad married my mom I know now. Taking us girls out of a horrible start of life.
I left home pretty young to find me, I think I found much more. I lived in some torn down homes, finding any where to lay my head down. My mom tried her best to pull me out of the places I was in, but I ran further away.
I am sure she cried many tears over me, yet I couldn't bring myself to ease her pain. As I lived this crazy life I learned how to depend on myself, sink or swim as so many say. I trusted only myself. My mentality was greatly alerted by these years. Although, painful, sad, and lost most of the time, I survived.
After some time I came back home, but my way of thinking was to far gone, they opened their arms, and loved me so, but I just couldn't share who I use to be. I never asked for sympathy, or felt as if I was given a bad hand in life.
Now a days, my life with my family is still strained, but time to time I show the person inside and for a minute all seems right to the world.
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